Self-Reflecting On My Blog

Looking at my previous blog posts makes me feel inspired.

I love the fact I write about positivity and uplifting people up, I love my nature as a person to be kind to people and to let things go over my head. I label myself as naive and that’s fine, but I’m genuinely a good hearted person.

In person ‘I’m not a confident speaker’, it’s 4am in the morning as I’m self-reflecting and I realise the more I keep saying I’m not a confident speaker the less of a confident speaker I will become, because the law of attraction does exist and I write so passionately about this on my blog, so why am I not practicing what I’m preaching!

Why am I so scared to openly express myself physically and openly but not afraid to express my thoughts on this blog?

Only one of my friends actually know that I host a blog and even with talking about my blog for the first time to someone in my circle, I felt anxiety rushing through me in case they thought it was stupid, which they didn’t.

We’re always so critical of ourselves and I want to break that.

I am a confident speaker I know what I’m talking about on paper, so why can’t I openly talk about things that I’m passionate about verbally?

I find when I go to university I’m quiet, I’m naturally a very shy person and overly polite to people.

I have one good friend that I discuss things with, but when I speak to my mom who knows every aspect about me, I blow her ears off about the course, about lessons I’m learning my ideas and what I’m going to write about in my essay, and she doesn’t know what the hell I’m talking about and doesn’t have a response to what I’m saying half the time.

My friend that I’ve known since October has already picked up a lot about me which I’m shocked about because I am naturally a shy person so I feel as if I appear to be closed down, but she’s read me and says what I’m thinking majority of the time and is also into spirituality.

We’re similar in a lot of ways and I do feel comfortable expressing myself 1 to 1 to her outside the classroom, but what she’s excellent at is verbally expressing herself in class, not caring what other people think or whether people understand her perspective, which I admire.

I thought when I began writing this self reflection post it was going to be sad, but I’m actually feeling empowered and motivated right now

The more I speak openly about things the better and more confident I will become about expressing myself, and I shouldn’t have to be afraid of what others think and afraid that I’m not making sense because life is a huge learning curve.

I look back to the times before I had my son, and I was full of fire, I confidently expressed myself I didn’t care what anybody thought and I was headstrong.

I have to honestly admit I was convinced I knew everything, I thought I was mature for my age which I was but in a lot of ways I had a lot of growing up to do and also bad qualities I needed to get rid of.

Motherhood has made me strong in some aspects, but I think in other ways it’s softened me which isn’t a bad thing because I’ve became a more emotionally aware person because of my own life experience as a mother.

Because of the fight I have inside me about my own son and the constant insecure thoughts ‘am I doing a good job’, ‘am I doing enough’ followed with overthinking thoughts about his future and actually knowing I have no control over bad things necessarily happening when he’s older (e.g. negative life experiences from peers) has made my reality scary although I know deep down it’s just the voice in my mind exaggerating a lot of things causing doubt.

I have turned into a control freak in many ways. I’d rather sit there and be quiet, not express myself because I’m comfortable in that spot, I’m controlling the situation in a way because I’m choosing to not go out of my comfort zone because I know if I express myself in that moment and someone tries to challenge me, it will make me uncomfortable.

Im more comfortable sitting on the back shelf rather than being confident and expressing myself openly, no matter how uncomfortable I am, and my friend says to me all the time: ‘Comfort does not enable growth’ and this is so true.

I’m hoping this year I will get better at verbally speaking out. I’m a very introverted person, and I love to have discussions 1 to 1 rather than in a group. I will get better at this and become more confident in myself.

Hopefully I will bloom this year into a better and confident person, an evolved Louise from previous years, with better qualities.

Does anyone else feel like 2018 is going to be positive? Maybe it’s because it’s still January and I’m being cliche, or maybe it’s the 8.. who knows lol

I hope you have a lovely day who ever may be reading this

It’s always positive to self-reflect 🙂

Love,

Louise oxoxo

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How To Get Fuller Lips

Before I got lip fillers these are temporary things I used to do to make my lips look bigger.

My lips were always an insecurity of mine, now that I’ve had lip fillers many people have seen how confident I’ve become.

A couple months before I made the decision, these things helped enhance the look of my lips which made me less insecure, so I hope that these tips help you too:

EXFOLIATE

You can make your own DIY lip scrub by mixing sugar and honey together to form a paste, and by gently rubbing this over your lips. You can also buy something similar and delicious from lush which I sometimes used, but I find it cheaper and easier to of made my own.

Some people also exfoliate using a toothbrush but I found I got better results by using the scrubs.

By doing this your boosting the blood flow to your lips and also getting rid of any dead skin. By boosting the blood flow your lips naturally will look more full.

CONTOUR YOUR LIPS

Contouring my lips made the biggest difference to the shape of my lips! I normally would contour with a darker lip liner, normally a brown or sometimes even a dark plum red, it would depend on what lipsticks id wear, and the look I want.

I’d contour similar to the picture above. I’d slightly over draw my lips, and I’d also over draw the Cupid’s bow because I hated mine so much, I’d also fill in the centre of my lips just so they look fuller and then I’d apply my lipstick on top and make sure it’s blended.

Have a play with contouring your lips and find out the best technique is good for you, depending on the look you’re looking for.

MATTE LIPGLOSS

Over all lip sticks and lip glosses I found that matte lipsticks would make my lips look fuller along with contouring my lips. My ultimate favourite are the ones from the NYX lingerie collection. I’m obsessed. I love the shade “exotic” and I also love “push up”.

NO HIGHLIGHTER

So they say highlighting the Cupid’s bow makes the lips look plumper, but whenever I did this, it drew more attention to them being thin and small. Try it and see if it works for you, but also try it without, let me know what you think.

Having plump lips isn’t everything, but if it’s something that makes you insecure I hope these tips are help to you, or if you just want to try it out anyway, I hope doing these tips help you achieve the look you wanted.

Lots of love,

Louise oxoxo

My New Year Resolutions

Hello,

Late post as it’s nearly the end of January, but we’re still in January so it still counts!

Every year I used to hate people talking about their new year resolutions because I used to think it was cliche, and no one ever sticks to them.

But I decided to finally make 5 new year resolutions easy for me to actually achieve and I’m following them well so far.

1. Stop Worrying About What Other People Think – as a heavy over-thinker I think in the previous years if somebody didn’t like me, or had something negative to say about me I’d always try to prove them wrong. But you can’t please everyone and if someone actually took the time to get to know me, they’d realise I’m actually not that bad, so this year I’m making this my priority.

2. Become Vegetarian – Not so easy but I’m so educated as to why I want to be a vegetarian, it’s something that I definitely want to achieve by the end of the year. Honestly I’d love to be vegan but I want to start off slow. I’ve been practicing meals without meat, and I’ve been researching loads into it. Definitely a goal of mine.

3. Stop Being So Self Conscious – This is hard for me but it’s something I’m practicing now and I’m already getting better at it. The same as the first resolution, I care too much about what people think, and I have bouts of anxiety especially when I’m out by myself it’s something I’m trying to get under control. I’ve learned already that if I let those feelings inside take control I start to act withdrawn and shy and I can’t make eye contact, I can’t stand it when I feel this way because it’s obvious and looks like I’m being rude. This is a major one to accomplish this year and I’ve been doing little changes to improve this. The quote above is exactly how it is with my insecurities and self consciousness but I’m overcoming it, it’s not a way to live

4. Get To Know Myself – As much as I used to preach on this blog about positivity, and finding yourself and all those posts were authentic and true, but I never practice what I preach, but this year I am. Instead of being anxious about the future, I want to discover myself again, I want to enjoy my own company and ultimately love myself. I think this is important.

5. Become More Holistic – Along side the becoming vegetarian, I want to practice holistic remedies frequently. Such as I want to stop using perfume and implement essential oils so that I’m cutting out the toxins in perfume. I basically want to transform into Jhene Aiko this year. I want to wear less makeup, I want to clear my acne through clean eating and natural remedies and I want to meditate and water a million plants in my flat, honestly that is what I want this year lol.

So yes, these are my five new year resolutions. I mean I’ve said ‘easy for me to achieve’ but they are actually difficult. But I know this year I will achieve this as I’m already doing subtle changes.

I know that doing these things will make me happier as a person and will transform me into my greatest self.

So hope you’ve loved reading my new year resolutions, have you made any for this year? I’d love to hear, and are you sticking to them?

Love,

Louise oxoxo

Update: Where Have I Been?

It’s been since November since I’ve posted!

And I know this is the second where have I been post i’m just adjusting to life!

I’ve honestly neglected my blog so much, university has been a huge shock for me because I’m constantly researching, doing assignments and also I have to play Mommy once I come out of university, so most of my work is done on the night which I used to spend making blog posts.

Now that I’ve settled into university, and now things are much more organised especially in the mom department, my son should be settled with a childminder soon, I should have much more free time.

As I’ve logged into this I’ve noticed I’ve received more followers and more views on my blog posts so I’m thankful for that considering my blog posts have been non existent since November, I hope you have enjoyed my posts

So yes, hopefully I’ll be making more posts, and I should have more free time doing what I enjoy, I hope everyone has had an amazing Christmas xoxo

Love,

Louise oxoxo

Skincare Haul! Mario Badescu Skin Care Products

Hello!

My skin has been so bad lately.. until I discovered Mario Badescu! I am telling you, why didn’t I discover this range sooner?!

I decided to write a post about recent purchases and decided to put one up to do with skincare as I suffer from acne.

Below is what I think of the Mario Badescu as my first impression, also links to purchase these items..

Mario Badescu

AHA BOTANICAL BODY SOAP

– I suffer from acne on my shoulders it’s so embarrassing but I’ve noticed that my breakouts are becoming less. I’ve used this product for a month, also my skin feels softer and smoother in texture, and it smells floral which I love. I use this every single day without fail and I still have half a bottle left.

ACNE FACIAL CLEANSER

– If I’m completely honest, although the cleanser has improved the texture of my skin on my face my breakouts are still present, but slightly reduced. I’ve only been using the product for a month so of course I’ll continue to use it and I’ll see what my over all conclusion is. I suppose because it says ‘Acne facial cleanser’ I’m expecting a quick fix to my skin becoming clear, but it’s a process.

DRYING CREAM

– THIS IS HOLY GRAIL. As soon as I have a spot or an area that has broken out, I put the drying cream on and the next day the area is so reduced and not even inflamed, it’s insane! I love this. The only downfall is the cream comes in a tiny tub. You don’t get a lot of product however, a little goes a long way. The cream is thick and does not irritate the skin. If you do have dry skin I would be careful using this product. I normally use this cream on the night. Mario Badescu,please make a larger tub of product for me! I will pay extra.

SPECIAL CLEANSING LOTION O

– I like the smell of this lotion but I’m not completely excited about this. I think my major put of is that it has talc in and also, although it smells nice and definitely makes my skin softer after using the cleansing lotion, I feel like this hasn’t changed my skin dramatically.

DRYING MASK

– Similar to the drying cream, you use this 1-2 times a week and can use this on your back, chest, shoulders too which is great. This really does dry everything up, so I definitely recommend an oil-free cream after using this mask. Your skin will feel so soft in the morning especially if you use a toner after you use the drying mask.

OIL FREE MOISTURISER SPF 30

– When I first seen the bottle I was like no, this product is going to be gone in a week, but when I used it a small amount goes a long way. I used a pea sized amount and that covered my entire face and my neck, and I used a medium thick dot to cover my chest, back and shoulders. You don’t need to use a lot at all. The cream feels so lovely, not greasy at all (of course cause its oil free), my skin feels so soft. It’s similar to the Neutrogena oil free grapefruit moisturiser, but a notch better

ENZYME CLEANSING GEL

– the consistency is thick and feels so soothing on your skin. I used this cleansing gel on my face and my skin felt so smooth afterwards! I’m excited to see if it makes any difference to my Skin overtime with consistent use.

BUFFERING LOTION

– When I look in direct sunlight I always see small bumps under my skin and it drives me insane. I try to get rid of them which causes damage to my skin and I end up breaking it because the spot hasn’t surfaced. When I saw the buffering lotion which is for under surface bumps I couldn’t even contain my excitement. You have to shake before you apply, the texture feels almost greasy, but then it dries on your skin. It doesn’t feel uncomfortable.

GLYCOLIC FOAMING CLEANSER

– Recommended to use 1-2 a week so that you don’t damage the skin. My skin felt so amazing after using this, I love the fact it foams up. I will have to continue using this to see a complete change in my complexion.

WHITENING MASK

– Because of the years of acne especially on my shoulders I bought this to see whether this will eventually begin to lighten the pigmentation that I’m left with. It’s easy to cover my face with makeup but I’m so self conscious of my scars I never wear certain tops because of it. Now it’s under control (that’s to some of these products) I thought I can start to use this mask to lighten the pigmentation. I haven’t noticed a significant difference but I’ll update this post in a few months time

DRYING LOTION

– When I received this in the post it was all mixed together and was a pale pink colour. I was like is this off? Cause online it looked different. When I left it to stand and saw it it was separated and looked like how it was presented in the picture. There’s pink clay at the bottom and it’s important that you leave it to stand and not shake it before application. You apply by dipping a cotton bud into the bottle and applying the clay to surface spots. Don’t make the mistake of not listening to the bottle when it says “don’t apply to broken skin” I recently sabotaged a spot in the day so when I applied the clay on the night it stung but the next day it’s completely gone along with the surface spots I applied the clay with, and that was using it for one night!

So, yes I’m so in love with Mario Badescu I just don’t know why I didn’t discover this before!

I’m thinking to update my skin reaction in a few months time so I can see whether this is really helping my skin or is it giving me false hope, but so far these products are amazing.

Let me know what you think of Mario Badescu Products, what else do you recommend for acne prone skin and scars?

Love,

Louise oxoxo

Make Your Eyes Look Brighter!

My eyes look completely different when I don’t wear makeup and that’s because I always aim for my eyes to look awake and brighter which I feel can be enhanced greatly with makeup.

Here are my tips for brighter, awake looking eyes!


CONCEAL!

Use a concealer that is 1 or 2 shades lighter than your skin tone.

I love liquid based concealers because they seem to dry better and don’t feel as greasy or cakes on my skin but go with whatever you feel works for you! I’m currently using Maybelline eraser eye concealer.

Depending on how bad my under eye circles are I sometimes conceal underneath my foundation, and if I’m satisfied that’ll be fine or I conceal underneath foundation then top it up again on top of foundation then I blend with face powder

Conceal under your eyes strobing outwards almost in a v shape or triangle, so that the concealer isn’t just sitting under your eyes, under your eyebrow and on your eyelids to make the eye area appear brighter. Blend this in so that you can’t see any creases and lines.

HIGHLIGHT

Highlighting your brow bone and in the corners of your eyes can make your eyes look so much brighter.

I use a light coloured highlighter from the too faced chocolate bar palette called ‘champagne truffle’. I sometimes use benefit’s high beam highlighter which is liquid form, and sometimes I use both depending on how much highlighter I want to use.

USE A FLESH COLOURED EYELINER

I’ve been doing this step for years and it definitely makes a difference, I can’t not do this anymore when I’m not wearing makeup.

I use a flesh coloured eyeliner – Rimmel Scandal Eyes Waterproof Kohl Eyeliner in Nude – and I line my waterline and sometimes I tightline also using this colour.

I’m not sure why but my eyes look so awake when I also tightline using the nude, better than if I tightline using a darker colour.

CURL YOUR EYELASHES

Curling your eyelashes DOES make a difference! Once you do it you will be addicted.

I curl my eyelashes before I apply mascara and I hold the eyelash curlers on for 10 seconds then release.

I then apply mascara evenly and then wait for that to dry, then I curl them a few times after and apply more mascara if I need to.

You won’t believe the difference it makes to your eyelashes by curling them. It really makes your eyes look wider.

You can get an eyelash curler from any drugstore.

MASCARA

A good mascara matters because you want the application to be even, not heavy and you don’t want clumpy eyelashes.

The best mascara I’ve ever used would be benefit’s they’re real and this made my eyelashes so long without curling them.

Another good mascara I’ve used would be the L’Oréal Miss Manga which was amazing. L’Oréal have a great range of mascaras, I’ve also used the million lashes and the false lash superstar mascara.

WINGED EYELINER (OPTIONAL)

Sometimes winged eyeliner can make people’s eyes look more open or can make your eyes look smaller depending on how you do your eyeliner.

I try and do mine evenly making sure I don’t wing it out too thick. I also find it easy to use an eyeliner liquid pen although it’s annoying when the tip turns weird or it appears to have run out.

At the moment I’m using maybelline precise liquid eyeliner it’s amazing.

Practice makes perfect with winging eyeliner and tape is amazing to use if you’re a beginner! (See tape tutorial here)

I feel like if I line my eyelids close to the corners my eyes appear smaller I’m not sure why, but if I line from the middle and outwards, they look more awake.


Love,

Louise oxoxo

Sunshine Blogger Award!

I was nominated by the lovely Rebecca check her blog here, she is an amazing beautiful person and an amazing mother who writes an amazing blog, really do check her out!

Thank you for nominating me for the sunshine blogger award again, this makes me feel so confident in blogging!

At the end I’ll nominate some bloggers and set some questions to answer, before I do that here are questions Rebecca would like me to answer!

1. Name 3 Life goals you want to achieve.

• Travel somewhere magical that makes my sons soul light up, Receive a masters degree and I would love to get married one day honestly

2. One thing or person that makes you laugh.

• Stupid humour! I can’t explain it, unexpected spontaneous moments and when you look at someone who notices the same thing!

3. If you could go back in time to when & why?

• Hmmm id day 60s cause of the hippie phase but there was a lot of racism so wonder how they’d feel about a mixed raced hippie 😂 hopefully because they’re hippies they’d be peaceful, but other than that I’d love to be an adult in the 80s/90s the music, vibes just seem amazing.

4. Name one celeb you fancy. <<
ichael Ealy I can’t even deal with him 😍

5. 3 words to describe yourself. • Kind, Dopey and Drama queen

6. What’s your worse habit? • Getting moody over food and drifting off into other isles whilst shopping

7. What’s the most embarrassing thing that has happened to you? • When I tried on a top from newlook, lace to be exact, and I am telling you I could not get this top off. I spent like 20 minutes in the room thinking do I laugh or cry, so I had no choice but to text my mom the situation as she was outside, so she came in tried to help me out of this top and the top ripped 😂 it was so loud I could of died. We literally ran out of the shop cause we were so embarrassed.

8. If you had a superpower what would it be? • Ability to stop time

9. What is your favourite tv show? • Eastenders and Dr foster

10. Morning person or Evening & why? • I’ve converted to a morning person because of university, you feel more motivated and up for the day when you get up early in the mornings.

11.What actress/actor would you choose to play you in a film & why? • this is so hard because I don’t really know my actors/actresses as I don’t really watch movies. I cant think!

Here’s who I’m nominating:

Ames

Bronagh

Emma

Ashleigh

Amba

Here’s my questions to you guys: 1. Would you say you’re pessimistic, optimistic or a realistic person?

2. What’s your favourite song right now, and why?

3. If you could be anywhere right now where would you be?

4. What’s one memory that makes you smile

5. What’s your favourite thing to do that lifts your mood

6. What came first? The chicken or the egg

7. Do you believe in ghosts?

8. Do you have any superstitions?

9. What trait do you like about yourself?

10. Is there anything you would change about yourself? Why?

11. What’s something not many people know about you?

200 Followers?!

Wow 200 people following this blog that’s insane!

Thank you so much!

Before I even made my blog private for a month people were still visiting and liking my posts, and following me which made me feel so great and confident about my posts!

I can’t thank you readers enough for following me and taking the time to appreciate what I write, because this is all I want the purpose of my blog to be, to help, inspire and share lots of positivity.

I’m now settled at university and I feel like the people I’ve met on the course have made me awake again to my spiritual self the way I was a couple months ago, the optimistic side of me, the person who always learned some lesson or some sort from whatever I’m dealing with.

So with that being said, thank you for following I appreciate it so much and I’m so glad you like my posts and may more to come.

Lots of love,

Louise oxoxo

Where Have I been?

I haven’t blogged in a couple of months due to problems in my private life also getting used to university.

At the time I thought getting my self back to normality and sorting out my problems was far more important than blogging, as you know my favourite posts are to write about positivity to uplift people, but as I wasn’t uplifted myself I couldn’t possibly write authenticity.

Now things are going back to normal and I’m getting the hang of university I want to dive back into what I love the most, which is writing posts that are meaningful and to help other people, also I want to write reviews on products of tested and tried, I want this blog up and running again!

All my apologies for my lack of use on social media and on WordPress, also my lack of showing interest to other bloggers, I simply was not ready to begin blogging nor did I have the time as a lot of things were happening at once.

Thanks,

Love

Louise oxoxo

Mommy Tag!

I was tagged by the lovely Rebecca, who has an amazingly beautiful blog. Go and check her out!

Here are the questions:

• Are you a stay at home mum or a working mum?

At the moment I’m a stay at home mum but I’m studying a degree at university so I wouldn’t like to work at the moment as half my week is filled with uni.

• Do you co sleep?

Yes! I used to feel guilty because everyone would say to me ‘he’ll be in your bed when he’s 15!” As banter but I’ve educated myself with co-sleeping. When he’s 3 I’ll try and get him into his own bed and see how he gets on. I breastfeed so co-sleeping is so much easier to feed and it’s amazing in the morning when he’s trying to give me kisses and pokes my face to get me to wake up.

• Would you have it any other way?

No I love Ky it’s hard at times but I couldn’t imagine life without him

• What is your one must have item for your child?

Food honestly i know every child needs food, but I’m telling you when he’s hungry he kicks off major so I need at least something he can munch on.

• How many kids do you plan on having?

I would love to have a big family, I’d love to have 4/5 children, but because my sons dad has no involvement I’m worried if my son will feel like the odd one out if I was to have more children with his future ‘step dad’, so I have mixed feelings whether I want more or not..

• Date Night? How many nights/days do you go out?

Single at the moment but my mum watches Ky every Friday, so I can just chill at home or make plans with friends but if I’m honest I’m loving these chilled nights in bed watching animal documentaries 😂

• Your child’s favourite show?

he Night Garden

• Name one thing you bought before you had your child and never used it?

I would say bottles, I’ve only tried using bottles a few times but he’s refused them even now I’ve Night weaned him from breast he took the bottle for two weeks now he’ll go to sleep without the milk or bottle because he doesn’t like the bottle, it’s weird.

• Your child’s favourite food?

Chicken and seasoned cous cous

• How many cars does your family have?

None

• Dream holiday with your child?

I’d love to take him skiing when he’s older and to go on the Polar Express

• How has your life changed since your child has been born?

I feel like I’ve realised that I don’t know it all and I’m not as wise as I thought I was and that this is an amazing experience and to embrace it. I’d say I’m definitely more sensitive now I have a child, I cry at everything and I feel like I’m more confident at speaking to people.

• Finish the following sentence… ‘It makes my heart melt to see…

My boy pick up things I teach him and when he dives on me for hugs and kisses. It actually makes me emotional!

• Where do you shop for your child?

I shop in next, Zara for his coats and Primark.

• Favourite make up and skincare product?

At the moment I’m loving esteé Lauder double wear foundation I’m obsessed! Urban decay, maybelline, NYX and L’Oréal.

For skin care I’m loving garnier products lately and skin care from Holland and Barrett’s as they’re natural based products.

• Huggies or pampers?

ampers all the way!

• Have you always wanted a child?

es! People would say to me you’ll be a mum at 16. I’ve always seen myself becoming a mum.

• Best part about being a mum?

ow much love you have for your child and how much love they have for you. I also love the different stages you get to see. I love everything about the development and helping your little one be the best version of themselves possible.


I’d love to tag:

Sophie<Laura<Brittney<<<<
e you all enjoyed reading my answers and I can't wait to see what the responses will be from the people I've tagged!

Love,

Louise oxoxo